Weight. Fitness...
These are two things I have struggled with over the years, and it sometimes seems like I'm in a constant battle against my body. However this time, I'm determined to win!
Since I was about 14 (growth spurts, puberty and boobs took over) my weight has been a constant problem for me, and is something that's always effecting the way I perceive myself and how I feel on a day to day basis.
I'm pretty sure since that time, my weight and body size has fluctuated up and down by around 2 stone and 2 dress sizes! At my largest I was a size sixteen, and despite still being unhappy and unconfident about my body, I'm proud of how far I have come over the past couple of years and the two dress sizes I have dropped.
So yes, I am now a size 12 and I am pretty pleased with that.... but as always, my body still isn't how I want it to be! Due to the fact that I am 5ft 10, and am quite big built, I think it's time to accept the fact that I'm never going to physically be able to drop below a size twelve....... the clothes just would not fit! However, my aim now is to lose a bit more weight and become an all round fitter, healthier and more toned person!
I do really love going to the gym, and it really helps with my mentality and positivity. Since I suffer from anxiety, exercise really helps me to release stress and just generally improves my mental wellbeing (particularly when I have tons of university work that needs doing). I like to feel as though I'm doing something good for my body, and at least by exercising, I know that I'm working towards my goals.... it's just a slow and steady process.
I think no matter where your body type, weight or size fits; as long as you feel comfortable and happy, then it shouldn't matter what anyone else thinks.... and if you aren't happy, then taking up exercising/healthy eating will at least leave you in the knowledge that you are working for what you want!
Keep it up, and you will get there.
Tanith
xx
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